Sunday life | Growing Up

Somewhere in the past few years, I grew up without really realising what was happening. I've always been a slightly indecisive person- do I want a hot chocolate or frappuccino? (I don't know oh help I'm next in line.) I didn't have a morning where I suddenly sat in cold sweat, a job, debt, bills to pay and all those other things that didn't seem like such a big deal a few years ago. But all of a sudden, although I still call my parents for their advice on things, I have those scary adult moments. Did I lock the door?  When do my next direct debits come out? Do I need more milk?

I'm currently at that 'no I can't do this, can I be 17 again please' phase in my life. Everything is scary, and everything is my own choice. It really hits home when you start to realise that planning out all your own meals is just a thing you do now, and that washing just won't do itself anymore. Hello emergency underwear.

If you've been reading my blog a while, you might have noticed my blog is a lot different to how it used to be. I am no longer a people pleasing teenager. Don't get me wrong, I don't now push old ladies over in the middle of the street, but I've decided there's only so much you can care about what other people think. So instead of being scared that you'll all think I'm crazy, I'm embracing it. Yes, I do wild and wonderful things sometimes. But mostly I'm very average, and have weekly meltdowns in Costa and Starbucks over whether I want a hot or cold drink. Maybe one day I'll just start ordering both.

There's no real point to this post; I just felt like sharing with you how scary, but equally quite exciting, this is for me. That's what sunday posts are for, weird and wonderful little pieces of getting to know me!

I hope you're all having lovely weekends!

n xx